sick but loved :3

( forgive me if i speak too much mat salleh)

As people would say, when you are sick, you will know who cares for you the most. And i know now.
You might think i'm silly but i wanted to get admitted into hospital since i was a kid. I saw both of my sisters being admitted and i want that to. Not to be sick. But to lay in a bed, and being treated like you are the person that matters the most. My wish came true.

After few appointments that my dad accompanied me to, i found out i had a perforated eardrum. Almost 40% of my left eardrum is gone. the doctor said "if you dun get an operation,if water flows into your eardrum and get an infection, it might spread to your brain. Its okay not to do an operation but you can't swim or do many stuff that can jeopardize your hearing." I looked at my father's face and realized that he is worried. I was not scared. even a bit. but was actually excited to get into a ward. I know its stupid but its true. That was my dream.

Today i will be admitted into the ward! i was truly excited. i did not think of the pain i would face but only the experience i could have. i imagine my friends visiting me and  worries about my health. Damn imagination.At first, i had to wait in line for registration.I waited and i saw a kid. i made funny faces and he laughed. After few while, he came to me and gave me chewy candy. i was super touched by that kids doing. later on, i saw another boy who was in the same ward as i did. he was with his parents and he seemed spoiled by his parents. but what to expect from a 13 years old kid. anyhow, i was taken aback that the person on the bed next to me in the ward is a friend of my. Aimy. She got tonsils and had a rockin' voice.

Now, the important part of my story is the day of my surgery. The operation bed (OB) is pushed infront of my bed. I quickly went to the toilet to change into the surgery clothes and got on the bed. Both of my parents were there. Smiling. Nervous. Scared. The operating room is far. The nurses had to push the bed fast. Laying on the bed. I saw. Both of my parents are struggling to catch up with the nurses because they walked so fast. My parents are 50+ so you got to understand how they will become easily tired. But they are still walking as fast as they could to catch up. To be there for me.

When I arrived in the operating room, my dad followed me. he signed the bius contract and i'll be off into the operating room. But my father insisted to let my mother see me for the last time before the surgery. the doctor asked me "mak dengan ayah memang macam tu ke. ke awak takut?". with ego i said " taklah. diorng yg risau." I then saw her walking from the door, smiling, panicking. she almost fell because of the croc slippers she wore. She looked at me in the eyes and said "syasya ok ke ni. orait. Love u. " . She kissed me on my forehead and i entered the operating room.

The moment i got in, I saw many doctors and nurses in there.The bright light on the ceiling and the weird machines makes the room looked like a space ship and they are some bunch of aliens that are going to eat my brain! oh. thats zombie. Anyhow, one of the nurses which is indian by the way said " mengucap ye adik.." and i was like WHATT? Am i going to die or something?!. The bius specialist gave me the bius and said "tarik nafas dalam2 ye adik, then lepas. ulang sampai 20 kali". I did and got knocked out at the 5th inhalation.

The moment i woke up, i was at another place. My throat is soooo dry because of the bius and it hurts so bad due to the oxygen tubes that they shoved in my throat. My ear is killing me and so is the stitches on my head. I cried. YEAH SO WHAT?! i'm human and i feel pain! crying is the only rational thing to do went a person is in pain. Do you laugh when you're in pain? if soo, get into a mental hospital! The reason i'm getting emotional is because ... ok! first. imagine you are in such pain as i was. The only thing you want is water to get your throat all wet. I kicked the end of my bed to get the nurses attention. I could not even speak because my throat sore so bad. Tears rolled down my cheek as no one cared to even look at me. At last a nurse came to me and i forced myself to say "nak air". The nurse said " ok. balik ward nanti minum." . I just want a sip of water! is that so hard to get? Then i heard a nurse said " mengada-ngada betol budak tu. dah 16 pon macam tu jugak!". Now not only my physical is in pain. so as my emotion! All i can do is cry till i fall asleep.

The second time i woke up, i was in the ward. I saw my mom and dad. Ayah asked me "syasya okay?". i gripped my hand and lift it to show that i'm fine. Both my parents laughed. But then the pain overwhelmed me and i can't help it but to cry. My mom quickly asked the nurse to get me a pain killer and after a while i did.

The third time i woke up, i saw my sister kakwa and dad. she smiled and asked me if i'm fine. The drug really works. The pain is much less now.  Then my brother came by and pull some jokes on me to cheer me up. My family were there. In times in needs. They took care of me. A nurse accidently made a mistake and my blood spilled all over the bed. My mom looked like she is going to kill the nurse for doing that.But i was thinking "klo sedekah kt nyamok seronok diorng". My mom stayed with me throughout the night. She made 3 chairs to become her bed. i know her back must sore sleeping on it. But she did it for me.  I watched her sleeping with a feeling of grateful that she is my mom. My Super Mama.

Anyhow.... the story is soooo much longer and my eyes are sore for looking at this computer, writing on my blog for hours. Therefore, i shall make a conclusion out of this. My family was with me the whole time. Encouraged and loved me the whole time. I am soo lucky and i'm sure that there are many people as lucky as i am to have a great family. The thing you often forget is to appreciate them and love them the most at all times. Your loved ones won't be around for ever and so are you. Love and appreciate when you still have the time. Say "Ahamdulillah" for all the bessings you get and be grateful to Allah S.W.T. :D 

aku tak cukup tidoooo T_T

taon nie aku hyper skit sbb nk kumpul sijil. tp study aku tunggang -langgang -_- sumpah fraust gle.. jadual aku, pagi g scola, then stay kt sekolah smpi kol 6 sbb ade netball or kawat.. pastu tusyen kol 8-11 mlm..
aku malu gle doh haritu ttdo kt klas.. dh dua kali kot! dh la terkantoi! sedap2 tgh mimpi ttbe NED jagakan, tgk2 ckgu eliza and some classmate aku tgh pandang.. cikgu eliza senyuuum je doh.. asal x segan la kan.. so, the moral of the story, after mid year, aku akn quit netball and kawat.. aku x mampu.. aku msok je la prtndgn yg x meletihkan sgt. and aku respect gegile kat sape yg msok netball and still study terer gilos.. aku x sekuat korng.. :(

BebolaJaring :D

3 WIBAWA!!!

Terer siotttt hahahahahahhaahahhahah!!

gonjang- great captain, great fren.. ktorng untung gile dpt die.. smart gle die maen and ahh.. terer habes lah bagi aku..

aiza- pemain import yg terer gile... terharu gak ah dpt die msok team ktorng .. ececehh.. haha..

ewanis- ni mmg terer gak.. pass,pass,pass.. fehhh... tp kesian jd mangsa ref yg agak tooot...

munee- even die ni penari sekolah, terer kot maen netball.. banyak die la tolong passing tp tgk cam die terer je klo jd shooter..

didi- asal x terer la didi kann.. tepissss!! tangkap!! defend!! aku nganga je tgok die jd gk.. terer kot..

norei- sumpah comel gle die lompat2 jge GA.. terer gileeee..haihh.. sume terer2..

aku - bolee la bg first time maen netball.. ade la beberape shoot.. ok lah :D

habes citer, ori, import, dua2 smart seyhh maen..everyone played their part well.. i like :)

lantak la ref cam bang-ang ke ape ke, org doakan ntahpape ke.. ktorng maen untk fun and ktorng puas hati gle dgn each other.. it's ok klo x dpt menang.. aku dah puas gle dgn total jaringan klas ktorng :D if we lose, we lose with pride bebehh..

i forgive u :D

everyone know its hard to mend a broken heart.. & i'm still bleeding with your lies until NOW! maybe it's a little weird coz its all thanks to OPRAH.. she said "forgiving does not mean we forget what that person did to you or accept what they did but forgiving is not feeling regret for the past".. something like that lah.. u lied, u cheat & u hurt my feelings but thanks to u, i'm a stronger person.. HAH! aku sure cikgu english aku gerenti kagum ngan ayat2 'mahal' aku niii :) tp seriuslah ni.. :D

Zaman Gua Btol aku niee...

Homaiiigoooshhh! CAntek nyeeeee blog2 kwn2 aku.. Walawehhh! eh.. Lawa wehhh!! Pffftt.. bpk jakun aku nie.. ye laa.. duk zaman gua kan aku ni... Haha.. Xpe2 ! Nnt aku ubah template blog aku jd canteeekkk, coooomeeei ,sume lah.. haha.. #gediks ;P

At least aku ade ramai followers.. ehh..Wahhh.. 'ramai' nyee aku pnye followers... UuuUuu... -_-' sorang je ade.. ciss.. agak2 la sya oii.. hang bukan nya bgtao kwn2 hang yg hampa ada blog.. mana la ada yg nk follow.. Hang piqiaq la sikit! (ckp ngn diri sendiri)

Uuuuaaaaaaaaaaa!!! xmo habes cuti!! XMO2! even aku yg x g holiday time cuti pon, xmo g sekolah.. Y? uuuyaiii.. Aku 'malu' la nk jmpe cikgu kesayangan aku pn.Eliza.. haha! Takut ade lahhh.. Erkk.. homework die un x siap lg.. get ready la untuk buku aku jd superman.. nnt sedap2 je die lempar buku aku.. nak pure2 demam la mcm aku slalu wat time sekolah rendah.. Haha!

Dulukan, aku nakal habes.. klo nk maen pon, maen ngan budak laky.. mcm2 projek aku dh bwat ngan izam.. Dulu aku dok kt teres perguruan.. rumah aku kt sekolah asrama la sbb mama & ayah aku cikgu kt situ..

Aku, izam, hilmi and kaklia penah....

• korek tanah lereng bukit wat lubang bnyk2 so jd mcm rock-climbing
• panjat2 pokok.. time turun, nanges x reti turun.. panjat je reti.. Haha!
  
• main kawin2.. Slalunya kaklia and izam jd mama and ayah, aku and hilmi jd anak..
• main pondok2.. Aku, izam, hilmi, kaklia nnt ade 'rumah' sendiri kt each tingkat tangga.. kt situ jgk la ktorng maen masak2.. hehe..
  
• main game favorite aku tme dulu2, 'POWER RANGERS'.. feehhh.. dasatt.. sorng jd mangsa, yg laen transform jd power rangers selamatkan mangsa tu.. terer woo.. haha!
• main perang2.. ade satu lereng bukit kt tepi sekolah tu.. kt stu ade pokok petai besarrr punyaa.. so, izam and hilmi kt bwh bukit, aku and kaklia atas bukit.. ktorang gune la petai tu jd 'BOOMERANG'.. haha.. ktorng lempar je kt each other cam orang gle smpi la ade yg nanges(slalunye hilmi)..
• main dgn anak kucing yg kitorng jmpe.. aku bg name aku punye irham.. tetibe, lame2 skit izam dpt adek bru, die bg nme adek die irham.. HAHA!!
  
• mandi gne sprinkler kt taman kt sekolah tu smbil basuh kereta ayah ktorng..
• maen badminton sme2 petang2..
• maen kereta control smpi tertukar2 kereta..
  
• turun bukit curam naek basikal.. seingat aku, aku la yg paling terer.. Cehh.. perasan!
• Gelongsor turun bukit gne kotak, last2 sme luka2.. Padan muke ktorng!
• ikot student sekolah tu g lawatan sesame..
• maen PS sesame.. almost setiap hari..
• simpan rahsia each other yg ktorng sbenarnye still minum susu gne botol susu walaupun dh darjah 4 time tu.. Haha!
  

Sumpah bnyk gle kenangan aku dgn izam , hilmi , and irham.. Sayang diorng! dh mcm siblings aku dh diorang tu.. kt fesbuk dh add izam tp nk tegor pon segan plak.. haha! ntah2 die dh lupe kt aku.. Lengkap childhood aku sbb ade diorng.. :D OWH! bru sedar.. aku dh lari topik.. Haha! ;P

Folio Oh Folio~~~~

Yay! aku dh siap esei untuk kerja kursus sejarah PMR!! wooohooo!! (sambil belek2 kertas tugasan)

eeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhh!!!! kejap!

-_-' dem! ESEI TIDAK KURANG DARI 15 HALAMAN!!bukan markah dye 4 je ke paling bnyk? GILO! aduuuhhh! WHY!!? KENAPE DUNIA KEJAM SGT KAT AKU BAB2 FOLIO NIEEE! huaa.. sambil nanges aku siapkan esei tuu..

OK! dh siap!! even mate dh bengkak aku senyum :) abes jugak derita niee.. BWAHAHAHA!! (belek2 lagi kertas tu) SNAP! aa.a...a...a..peee ni?? Elemen dua? esei tu bukan ke elemen tiga? aku gelak2 cam orang gile ~.~ "ooooohkeyyy.. bru i paham.. Hasil kajian x boleh kureng dr 15 page.. ooowwhh... silly me.. xpe... bia aku bwat ringkasan plak untuk esei 15 mukasurat aku tuh.. consider la mcm latihan untuk ringkasan BM.. ngeee ~.~" aku ckp kt dri aku dgn nada slow nk sabarkan diri...

SO, kembalilah aku kat pangkuan pc yg asyik menyeksa retina aku -_-'.. 'Bahagia' nya aku :) Memang dr dlu folio x penah ske kt aku :( i dun expect better from u folio!

conclusion : LAEN KALI BACE SOALAN TU LEKLOK! hadoiii ~.~

Gigit-gigit kuku ;P

NGap3.. What?? its a habit lahh..

cikgu azmiah : Saidatullll!! jgn gigit kuku tuu.. ish kamu ni -_-' dr form 2 smpi skrg x ubah2..
aku: errr.. ok2!! MAAAP!!
(10 minutes later-gigit balek... X SEDAR LAA..)

ayah: sya gigit kuku ke jari? ayah tgok kuku syasya dh habes pendek dh? sya jd cannibal eh?
aku : maneadeeee!! adek nk make sure die kekal pendek :D kan x baik simpan kuku panjang..dosa die mcm bela satu kandang babi.. klo pikir2kan balik ntah2 dpt pahala gigit kuku ni..
ayah : Habes tu ape gne diorng cipta ketip kuku?
aku : eeeerrr.. cara adek tradisonal skit :P ngeee...

Soooryy sgt2 if this habit bothers u.. i know its a bad habit :( .. susah laa nk stop! its not that I never tried!!

aku penah....

• tonyoh2 cili kt kuku aku and biakan smpi aku ttbe gigit tp aku x tahan panas cili tuu..
• letak bonjela dkt jari tp dgn x sengaja wipe off sendiri..
• pakai losyen kt tangan so time gigit kuku tergigit sekali ngan losyen skali.. ewwww !
• and bnyk laaagiii lah..
  

but next thing i know, aku end up gigit kuku balek.. :( huaaa..

i'll keep trying ok :D